Never ending Nightmare:

 I won't be sleeping tonight

I know that it's gonna be war (War)

Lately been up, wondering why

I'm even worth fighting for

I've been getting so tired of holding the line, yeah

The price that I pay to survive seems so high and I

I am raising my white flag tonight

When I close my eyes it's there waiting for me

Finds me every time, will I never be free?

There's a monster I caged deep behind my eyes

I can never escape, I've been running for miles

When the morning comes I know it will still be there

My never ending nightmare (My never ending nightmare)

Pull the veil over my eyes 

So I can't see the person I've become

What am I doing with my life?

Try to stop staring at the sun

But my eyes get the best of me

I'm on the edge, I'm in too deep

Why can't you see that I'm right here waiting?

I close my eyes, it's there waiting for me

Finds me every time, will I never be free?

There's a monster I caged deep behind my eyes

I can never escape, I've been running for miles

When the morning comes I know it will still be there

My never ending nightmare

I've almost had enough

Knowing I just couldn't get much lower

It's got me so messed up

Never knowing when this story's over

It's so hard to fight for myself

When living means living in hell

When I close my eyes it's there waiting for me

Finds me every time, will I never be free?

There's a monster I caged deep behind my eyes

I can never escape, I've been running for miles

When the morning comes I know it will still be there

My never ending nightmare, (My never ending nightmare)

(A reason to live)

 How many nights have you waited for someone to care

Thinking dying is what you deserve

Like a sad song that no one seems to understand

'Cause some pain is just too much for words

No, I don't know your name

No, I can't see your face

But I've been to that place in the dark

So in case you just needed to hear someone say

I'm so proud of you for getting this far

So if you're feeling like dying

No tears left for crying

Alone at the edge of a cliff

If you're so sick of fighting

The monsters you're hiding

And wondering if you would be missed

You're not the only one that's feeling likе this

If you're hearing this song it's a gift

A reason to livе,

(A reason to live)

How many times have you reached out for anyone's hand

From the depths of your personal hell?

And then counted the ways you could end all your pain

'Cause you're so tired of saving yourself

I'm a stranger at best but please don't second guess

All the hope that you hear in my voice

This is not some cliché, promise you if you stay

Someday you'll see that you were well worth that choice

You Are Enough

Soldier

So if you're feeling like dying

No tears left for crying

Alone at the edge of a cliff

If you're so sick of fighting

The monsters you're hiding

And wondering if you would be missed

You're not the only one that's feeling like this

If you're hearing this song it's a gift

What a beautiful truth that a human can choose

To become more than just what they feel

'Cause the hell in your head will be nothing compared

To the person that it couldn't kill

Welcome Fall.

 

You can tell when its fall in Florida simply by looking at license plates as you drive around. The colors of fall are on the rear of most vehicles..lol. All kidding aside, the tourism industry begins to boom as the snowbirds and others begin to filter in as evidenced by he numerous differences in license pates seen throughout the state.

As we say goodbye to those humid summer days with slightly lower temps its a welcome reprieve from sweltering temps, damp humidity and sticky, sweltering bodies. I am not complaining at all, as I wouldn't trade these days for the cold, snowy north. I believe I have settled into my comfort zone here in Florida. Can't beat the porch sitting in November thru Feb or March without shivering my ass off or having to worry about shoveling out the driveway, etc. No more having to be sure there is oil in the tank for heat, etc. Anyway I could go over all the pro's & con's but I will spare you and myself, you get the gist of it anyway.

She is done..

 Much happier with the blue than that ugly terra cotta look.

Transformation under way..

 

The house is finally getting painted after several months of waiting and pissing off the HOA.. No fault of ours though. Here are all the cracks found along the back side of the house. All patched and ready for paint. Filled a couple on the sides as well but has yet to do the front side which is worse than the back I am sure. Currently repairing some shotty drywall work on the porch ceiling. For whatever reason the tried to screw it up there and completely missed the beams with the screws so nothing was really holding it up in spots other than the existing paint, and of course the cracks started showing up and getting bigger over time, so....And instead of using the appropriate type of drywall, they just used the same as the interior and that doesn't work in the temps and weather conditions Florida has, but what can ya do, Not replacing an entire ceiling so patching as best that can be done. 

More as we get along...

Day -3 paint started:

interior/exterior porch done, Started the above section of back wall then weather halted it.

Day 4 and the entire back side is now done as well the two sides, front is patched and ready for paint. 

Liking the porch color a lot better than that awful terra-cotta orange.

Painter took weekend off as it was his birthday so hopefully tomorrow, Monday it will be finished all around, we'll see.