Possible License Suspension.??? WTF

 

 Now this, this right here is a bunch of BS...

I got me a notice that my license would be suspended next week due to us dropping the insurance on a car we no longer own and haven't since April of this year.

I followed up with their website and one of the options to avoid suspension was to provide them with a copy of the bill of sale.. So.. I sent them a signed copy of a hand written bill of sale from both parties acknoleging the sale, cost, condition the whole nine yards. Today I get a response saying that they cannot accept a written bill of sale from the parties involved.. WHAT??? its one of your own options for christ sakes.

NOPE.. now I have to fill out an online form, email it or drop it into a local office with a fee attached,(of course).. However the issue now lays with the fact that I no longer have the title to the vehicle and one of the blanks on the form is date of issue for title, description, etc. Well to my knowledge, when you sell a vehicle it is customary to sign the title over to the new owner.. so that is what I did back in April on the day of the sale. Some random dude from Orlando bought the car off of Facebook marketplace from me. so how is it I am sppose to get that information now????? Unless the purchaser has applied for a new title , they have no record of it being transfered and are now trying to hold me accuntable for not having insurance on said vehicle. WTF kind of crap is that. Sold in April now June.. Insurance was dropped on the car April 4th or 5th..and its just now coming back at me.. 

Lord I hate DMV's...

Unfinished summeries.

 

Need to get off my back half and finish summerizing 4 more poems I had written a few years back. Its just one of those things that gnaw on me occasionally, unfinished explanations as it were.

I try to express and clarify what my thought patterns were during the timeframe in which I had written the words. Kind of a verbal image of sorts to help clarrify my mindset at certain points in my life.

Anyway, just a rendom thought I had this AM while drinking my coffee and sitting on the porch listening to the storm as it passes. Another of the many reasons I enjoy my tranquil time and ritual in the morning..its a time to reflect and generate a new..

Staying home..

 There are days when this is the exact reason. I am not anti-social, I just get tired of watching others BS on a day to day basis, and sometimes I just want to chill.

Seems like everyone is upset or arguing over stupid crap that they really have no control over, maybe thats the problem, their inability to manipulate others into seeing it their way. So, yah... on occasion.. this is the exact reason...

Nearly a tragedy..

 Oh I was so looking forward to today, waking and making me some coffee. Prepped the machine, filled with water hit the button, and proceeded to make a single cup from the Kurig as I normally do first thing in the AM. I usually drink that and have a smoke on the porch while the pot is brewing. Well damned if it didnt go quite as it should have this morning. Waited my usual alloted time, came in, not a drop in the pot.??? Figured ok, maybe I wasn't awake enough and managed to get it wrong...emptied machine and started again...step by step... went off to do something else for a bit, came back ready for a nice hot cup... Not A Friggin Drop.. again... now I am at the WTF part of my day already.. Not a great way to start my day I tell ya.

So long story short.. it shit the bed..won't make coffee anymore. Now I am t'd off...

So after spending the morning with only one cup in my system I was irritable, took the thing out, tossed it in the trash angrily.. Now I have to go out, get another machine. did'nt want to spend the money on a new one at a retail store, so went to a local Goodwill to see what they might have as they usually carry quit a few on their shelves. Today, myself and many others got lucky! I found a brand new one not even opened as yet, marched my ass home and brewed a pot and have been drinking cup after cup since then..

Those that know, know...! So what could have been a major tragedy turned out ok in the long run... Now I can wake up again with the pot already brewed for me...Just love eliminating stress in my life...lol.

30 Days of self-care & graditude

 

Ever want to really get a grip on your emotional and physical well being? Here is a challenge for you. I have listed 30 daily journaling challenges to help take a better look at yourself, and were you are at emotionally and physically. 

Sometimes you have to step back and take stock in your overall health. Your emotions carry consequences your body and mind have to deal and contend with that tend to get overlooked on a daily basis.. So why not take inventory of them and see if you can change your overall outlook on yourself and the world around you. Give it a shot, and feel free to add other suggestions to your list of daily accomplishments. 

Hopefully within a matter of weeks you will start to feel different and have a better outlook on yourself and where you are emotionally and physically.

I used this siilar example and approach a great many years ago to take a good look at reality and the way I viewed myself and others around me, believe it or not, it helped pull me out of the slump I was in or at least percieved I was in. Outlook and attitude make all the difference in the quality of life we live. Will you forever be happy and joyfull...no.. but it does boost your self worth and encourages you to continue being your best and happiest. There is always something that can be considered an accomplishment and make you feel good daily, us it to your advantage and be a happier individual.. Best wishes..

Burning Question..

 

I don't know if if its my mindset , stupidity on my part or just a general observation, but... My son-in-law is really starting to piss me off.

We are all in a financial crisis of sorts here at the house.We, Deb and I, have been trying to nail him down on a commitment and agreement for digging their way out. He says he is working remotely and that his paychecks are bi-weekly.. ok believable enough, yet come payday.. he never seems to have the money needed for bills, rent, etc. He says his pay is direct deposited to his Navy Federal account which I helped to set up for him, yet he never once in the past 4 months has followed through with an arrangement we made as for him to transfer their share of the rent into my account so that I can pay the bill.

There is always some excuse when he gets confronted about it.. my pay was short, my pay was messed up, I didnt get the hours I needed, etc, etc. Yet in the same couple days, I see door dash at my house repeatedly for 12 packs of soda, snacks, meals like McD's, etc. For someone that doesnt have money he sure manages to live a pretty good friggin life if ya ask me. We never see him unless we go upstairs to confront him.

We currently have an understanding that he and our daugher will be seperated at the end of the month for approx. 3 months as he will be going to Tennessee, trying to re-establish himself as a viable member of society and our household, while our daughter has just started a new job and will remain here re-establishing herself and hoefully they work on what it is they are looking for in their marriage, relationship, etc.

I feel like he just lives a continuous lie, to himself, others and to our daughter. I have not once seen any validation of anything he says he will do, or does.. Its frustrating to say the least.

For being a "southern gentleman" term used extremely lightly, he sure doesnt know how to treat others or his wife. He comes off at times as though he is there, but two steps later he's back to his usual self. I do not put much stock in his upbringing, nor his current ways and I just dont understand.. Maybe its a generational thing, maybe he's just a freeloader and a jerk.. I don't know but I can't tolerate much more of his BS.. Its a matter of co-dependancy with the two of them and its a delicate balance of mental health, especially for our daughter. So how should this be approached, we have made several options available to both of them, him in particular, yet never can get a solid committment or completed agreement from him. I am just shy of telling him to get the "F" out now, not at the end of the month when we can bite another failed rent payment or a broken promise again. I have asked repeatedly about the/his plan, and all I get is I still plan to go to Tennessee at the end of the month.. no mention of financial obligations, only that his brother will come down and pick him up and take him back to Tennessee, back to a situatin they had left to move down here to begin with..??? Am I completely missing the picture here?

The guy cant/doesn't pay his way here, how the hell is he gunna support his wife, and a second residence. He is suppose to be starting a new job on the 15th of June, willing to bet..he has some excuses lined up already and that he will not contribute to their arrears in bills and rent here at all.

I use to have higher hopes for my daughter and her marriage, successfull employment, and a spouse that would do anything to support his wife, but I got this instead and I'm not sure where to go with it anymore. Different times, I guess, generational gaps, whatever the excuse..something needs to give. 

This also puts a massive strain on our son and his family, as its their house they purchased for us to live in. No rent month after month and no valid communication to them leaves them shaking their heads as well wondering when things are going to change. They are carrying the burden of 2 mortgages, utilities, repairs, etc. and trying to raise their own family. Its time, time to end the BS, be honest and make a valid plan that we are all part of and can agree upon, otherwise we may have no choice but to pack our shit and move so that they can possibly rent or sell the house to someone who will pay.

I really hate the fact that we are being put in this position by him, and not having the control needed to make it change. If it comes to it, and our having to relocate and flip our lives upside down again, there will be no peace making with him I am sure.I love my daughter, but I will never support him and his ways until he learns to put her first, and meet the needs of her, and their relationship. Until that time, he is just a known associate to me. I have said it over and over again... COMMUNICATION is key in any relationship... especially with family members. So going forward, if I do not see any progress, I will not be sharing any plans of this household with him, as we attempt to mend relationships with our son and his wife and settling any outstanding debts he has created with them.

In honesty, I hope the two of them can figure out what it is they are needing and looking for in their relationship, get their lives on track and on the same page and manage to keep things together. Do I hold out faith.. questionable at best from what I see as the pattern. All I know is, I am too old for the games and the BS, I just want to live my years in retirement and happy with my wife. We managed to get through the rough times together, including a seperation of our own, and yet here we are 34 years in the making and still going strong.

in short, I guess the questio I have is:

is it a generational gap, upbringing being different, lazyness, Why the extreme differences in ability or willingness to communicate?????

Decision made..

 

Well I bit the bullet and went ahead with my plans to move the desk, computers, etc to the upper level. I put them in a closet area that surprisingly had enough room to spare. Included a wall bookshelf, wire closet shelving.. Also has a window facing the front of the house so I even get a street and driveway view.

Considering moving the medium sized dorm fridge I have as well, never have enough cold drink material on hand..lol.

Once it gets some decorating in there, it should make a nice little niche for an office. The closet is actually part of a larger bedroom, which will probably get converted to a playroom for the grands when all is said and done. Best of both worlds, supervision of the kids, and a workspace should it be needed. Overall it probably wont actually get much use, but its nice to have an option for those days like a said before, when its damp, cold and just wanting a place to get away and off of the back porch sitting area.

 Room the new office is attatched to, which will become the kids playroom area.

Where-as we now have the extra space in the bedroom, I am entertaining the idea of setting up the spare desk we have and creating a workspace/office area for Deb to do her paperwork, etc. for her job, mainly because stairs have become an issue for her with her long term Covid effects. Hindsight is 20-20.. I could have just left the existing desk and made it a lot easier on me than having to swap the desk upstairs and moving them twice..., but oh well..I got ahead of myself..Its not like I dont have the time...just a waisted effort..

Thinking outload

 

Deb is again back in Maine doing some finishing touches and repairs to her dads house as they are getting it ready to put on the market. I am considering moving my desk and computers, etc to the upper level as we now have two vacant rooms up there and making it an office of sorts. I'm on the fence at the moment, due to the fact we may be in need of relocating here in the near future. I dont want to go through the hassel of moving stuff, setting up and getting cofortable if it all is for not.!

I would really like to do it and free up the space in what is now our bedroom/computer room and have the addded space available for just our bedroom. 90-95 % of the time on the computer is spent out on the porch anyway, and it makes more sense to me to just move it upstairs, seeing as I use the laptop on the porch most days anyway.Primarily on the porch for the quietness and the use of it as a smoking area as we do not smoke in the house. There are those nights though when it would be nice to be upstairs, not bothering anyone and not freezing my ass off as it can get pretty chilly down here at night, especially in the later fall/winter months, or when there is high moisture and windy conditions making so damp and cold I get the chatters and shivers.

Again though, do I go through the process and maybe not need to move, or do I just leave as is, and tolerate conditions as they are for now??? This is the question..

Been a spell..

 Been a while since making any posts regarding plants around here. Some have come and some have gone, but I decided to try my hand at rearing some Snake Plants. The adults I have growing decided to bless me with several new babies, so I have seperated them and will attempt to grow them individually until such time as they can be returned to the soil.

The adult is in a pot in my living room and standing around 4 feet tall at this point, so I am hoping to get some good maturity and size from these. One of the easiest plants to grow and can take a lot of abuse as to watering, etc. just dont want to drown them, but you can neglect them for quite awhile. Will keep tabs on them over the next couple months and see how they do as individuals.. stay update by visiting the blog.

Getting back on track..

 

In all honesty, it has been a very difficult 2 years down here in Florida. Our financial situation was/is in dire straights due to Covid giving us the 1, 2 punch and having Deb give up her social work practice. The mere fact that we didnt know if she was going to survive sent a shock wave through our existance and as a family we rallied.

Brandon was already living down here having retired from te Marine Corps with Lara also a retired Marine. Both had/have good paying jobs and were financially stable. They purchased a second house with the intent of moving us down here to live and be closer to our grandaughter, etc.

The arangement was for all of our children to "chip in", rent the house from them and free up any worry about our financial situation by providing a roof over our head and a place to call home. The issue begins with employment for everyone. Myself, I am un-employed and drawing Social Security finally after waiting for almost three years and not being eligible for SSDI. Deb having her own practice in Maine is/was having difficulty in securing employmet down here due to lack of references from employers. She has all the credentialing and experience she needs for a good paying job, but nobody wants to hire at an expense if they can get a local newbie in the field. The term "Over Qualified" bears a great weight down here.

The others, having pulled up roots, relocated from Maine and Tennessee were thrown into the mix with employment issues of their own. So basically meeting ends has been difficult and now Brandon and Lara have a second child only compounds the financial burden we have put them in. 

The plus side, Deb has finally managed to nail down an employer and has gained full time as well as a part time position within her field and financially we are and will get back on track and hopefully relieve some of the burden all around. In addition to the above, we have been dealing with vehicle issues this whole time adding again more financial debt and stress. Its been an emotional couple years full of turmoil, tollerance and self awareness, but we are hanging in, pushing thru and ready to take on whatever comes our way once again. Its funny how all this started mainly due to health concerns, me with the heart attack, diabetes diagnosis, and Deb clinging to life from Covid and its lingering effects.

Musical day..

 

Sitting here on the back porch awakening for the day, listening to the many songs of the different birds that are also greeting anew. Its interesting to hear the many species and their polyphony.

Enjoying the taste of the Starbucks Peppermint/Mocha coffee as the eyes and mind begin to function. It is in deed a relaxing start to the day.

A neighbor hood child across the pond is also practicing their violin.. I assume it is a child anyway, nothing fancy mind you, but the scales, etc. 

Was a rough night with some chest discomfort and tightness as well a nasty headache that just wouldn't dissapate and has carried over into most of the day so far, can only hope it will pass as the day goes on.

Still dead in the water..

This thing....grrrr. Seems even with a second new alternator, the thing is dead. Having had 2 batteries and 2 alternators installed, it will still not stay running for more than 2 seconds once disconnected from a charge. Apparently there is some sort of charging issue, be it a bad wire somewhere or the computer is toast, something. All I know is I cannot afford to be paying a mechanic lord knows how much for diagnostics or even worse having to repace the wiring harness at a fortune or the entire computer system.

So I guess the question is, do I keep and do as I can over time, or do I say screw it, get rid of it and take out a bigger loan and get a truck with longer payments.? I hate paying for something that is not even usable/drivable at this point.. Unfortunately I still owe a great deal of money on it, and will never get back what I need to cover on its loan.So again, either it sits useless for quite awhile, or I bite the bullet and go all in on a newer rig and longer payments. Sometimes I really hate adulting...lol.!

Version of Me..

 

The version of me you get depends a great deal on the version of you I get... I use to try and accomodate for moods, issues, etc. and be a listener and supporter, but after so many years of being treated like crap and or different than what should have been reciprical from family & friends. There are many I no longer even associate with due to seeing how their priorities fall and have fallen over the past few years. So ya, depending on who you ask, there will or may be several versions of me that one could hear about. But you know what, I do't much care anymore. Life is to short to waist time dealing with innuendo, others feeling and opinions. I never really was one for "Expectations" of others as I have seen way to many times that they apparently can be set to high even for the most modest of events.

So, regardless of how you view me, it matters not to me anymore. You may see that beautiful soul or you may see that cold hearted asshole, or anywhere in between. Just remember, it all depends on how you treat me, and how I view you...

I owe myself an appology for allowing others be comfortable with treating me like I'm nothing..