Another day..

 Just sitting here caffeinating and contemplating some life choices. Its been a rough past month or so, and the decisions just keep piling up as the days go by. We have family passing away, others moving away, and some that are just plain ass lazy at times and can't be relied upon for much other than chaos. So where do we/I go from here?

Considering relocating to a smaller home somewhere in the area as the house we are in now is way to big for our needs and financial responsibilities. With mounting car repairs, employment in the wind at the moment and not having a pot to piss in, its becoming more difficult to maintain my sunny disposition.. lol.

Dont get me wrong, I really like it here where we are now, its peaceful stave for an annoying yappy mutt across the pond. Its the independence that I miss, the lack of funds, and a questionable future as the retirement years begin to go forward. Just want to be comfortable and not under anyone's thumb or obligation. Family is great, but it can also turn ugly real quick under the wrong circumstances and the question is not of who or how, but when. You know, its that overpowering feeling of doom and gloom that hovers in the back of ones mind. We'll see, hopefully its just a bad vibe that will dissipate in short order.

So for now, I sit back, enjoy my nectar of the gods and hope for the best as that is about all the control I have of the situation for now.